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Not Knowing

by Nothing After

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I broke myself
Scraped the pieces
Fractured in place
Licks of ichor sin
Displaced in the ice of coronal bends
Cold wisps arch my back
A naked array
Fractured in place
My suffering sharpened
I want you alone

I am a slave to conviction
The hidden hand of my own self consumption
Immolating
In scintillating lights
Infernos
Acrid like
Harrowed like
Empty glass

Depressurized
Cruxed by

Knowing to numb myself to you
In preparation for your exit
Anticipating your approach to reckless abandon
And maybe I’m callous to your intonations
You have an explanation



I can’t live like this
Not knowing the difference between it
The shrouded saccharine birth of my pleasures wain
The eyes of a child caught behind a shroud
Was it all from nothing
Tainted beyond the reach of my memory
I can’t take it
Not knowing


Alone in strings
Caught between memory
Hanging by threads
Unravel me


Like starving rabid dogs
Environed
Vindicated
I decay and drown

Revel in stupor
Plead for correction
The caress of shame and lost control
Hidden by a haze of perversion
Stains in the bed frame
Severance from a past life
Bite the hand that touches me no longer


I hide my viscera away
Rotting behind my inner gates
The vile pleasure in violent shame
Flows in my blood
Veins of self decay
Hatred from the inside
I turn and twist into acrid shapes
Desecration like a haze
I promise that the things that lie inside will bring revulsion to your face

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released September 24, 2023
Son Vae - Vocals, Lyrics, Production, Acoustic Guitar, Electric Baritone Guitar, Bowed Fretless Bass, Concert Piano, Laptop
Audrey - Photography

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